Very Worried

Today has been poo.

Got up early to go to the library. Still no power. This means there was only a tiny little library for everyone. So I tried to get cosy in the little library. It's dusty, and rubbish and boiling hot. I thought I was going to pass out.

Because I felt so rubbish and it's been going on for ages I decided to combat my fear of doctors (I know this is a strange fear since I want to be one), and go to the walk-in clinic at uni. After spending 20 minutes sitting in a room being coughed on by lots of grumpy looking students, I saw a nurse. She was so excited by my lymph nodes and general grottyness that she recommended I saw the doctor after repeatedly squishing them and telling me she'd never seen any so huge. I was proud in a way.

So I waited another 15 minutes to see the doctor. She seemed nice at first. This was until she started poking me. It hurt alot. I guess this is good as it meant she had a proper feel of all my lumps and bumps, but I didn't feel that way at the time. As she probed symptoms out of me she gradually started to look more and more worried. This meant she poked me all over (including my ankles). In fact I've never had such a thorough examination.

After this I got sent back to the dramatic nurse to get blood tests done. The doctor said "We'll just do a little test to check if it's a bacterial or viral infection that can be delt with easily". The nurse started getting out loads of blood tubes. She then started rabbiting on in an excited way that they only check this many things when they think something is serious wrong. She then mentioned leukaemia and how my symptoms are textbook. Great.

Now I'm really worried. They put my blood tests through as urgent so the results will be in Wednesday when I have another appointment. I realise the chances of it being anything serious are pretty slim, but now an evil seed of thought is germinating in my brain. I just couldn't concentrate on my work today. I just kept phasing out and getting myself in even more of a state.

Going to try and do some work tomorrow because I really don't want to fall behind. Unfortunately the library won't have power until later in the week and I struggle to concentrate at home. Too many distractions.

Lily xXx