Pass!

I passed my exam! Woo hoo!

Unfortunately I didn't pass it as well as I would have liked to, and I'm a little worried that this will really affect my overall average for the year. My overwhelming feeling is one of relief though. I really didn't think I'd passed deep down. I was such a mess on the day of the exam.

In fact on the day of the exam I felt worse than I've ever felt in my life. I even had what I can only presume was a panic attack on the train on the way in. I was just standing there feeling pretty miserable. Then I started to feel warm and sweaty. After that I had a choking feeling. I couldn't breathe in fully and I felt like someone was crushing my chest. I then started to cry and hyperventilate. I'd usually be mortified by acting like this is public but I honestly thought I was going to keel over and die. Another passenger helped me off at the next stop and once I was in the fresh air I started to feel better and managed to shakily get on the next train and get to my exam.

I really hope nothing like that ever happens to me again!

Lily xXx